Starvation, Devistation

Where have I gone?
I feel like I'm a prisoner
in my own body.

Its a new year
and i fear
that sooner or later
nothing will be clear
I sit and think of
the things I've done
and why i did them
it was wrong.

I need to clean up my act
because the fact of the matter is,
nothing is in tact.

A while back when,
my life was in a downward,
spiraling spin.
I wanted to be thin
so i purged,
again and again.

It took me nowhere
except into a black hole.
Who would've known
I'd pay such a toll.

As the days went by
I would eat and eat
puke, puke
cheat, cheat

It made me feel
better about who i was
but what i didn't know
is that I'd be in the hospital
posted as a lost cause.

My wings are banging and burning so thin,
Rip them off, i don't deserve them
I know i have disease
all i ask is for help...

please.