Find myself

Why do you hurt me
when all i do is care
i try to suppress the pain
but somehow it's always there

I'm writing you this letter
to tell you I'm not home
i won't be for a while
i need to be alone

dad i want to thank you
but to me it wasn't fair
i need to sort my head out
but you know that i care

mum i don't know the reason
what i did to you
but to me you weren't understanding
now i don't know what to do

one person left
to you I'm not sure what to say
do you really not like me?
I'm not sure if we're ok

I've gone to find the answers
a trick to cure the pain
someone else to hide it
and take away the shame

maybe i won't come home
but i need to find my way
maybe one day we can fix this
but that won't be today

i love you all
but this situation is so wrong
I'm sorry if i wrecked this
I'm sorry now I'm gone