I am so afraid

I am so afraid because i know that
you have gone home

it's not the part of you being with god,
i just feel so alone

there's a burden on my heart because of
the fact that you left

it's not the part of you walking streets of gold
i just want to keep you for myself

at first i was mad at god because i felt like
he had failed me

he was talking away my blindness now
towards him i want to see

i want to be a better person, a person that
is true

to help anyone, in anyway-anything you
would do

you would've given your last breath even to
help a stranger out

having a person like you to love, is knowing what
love is all about

for a minute i want to turn on god because
he took away your life

it felt like into my heart, god was
stabbing a knife

but your body, mind, and spirit are at peace all of the troubles and worries you had,
they are finally released

when i look at your pictures, i still
cry millions of tears

i just wish i could've kept you here until
the end of all of my years

the worse part to cope with is that
you will never come back

that fact alone cuts my eyes and tears
no slack

i wish our lives were a movie; i would push
rewind then pause

a heart family and hearts full of pain is
what leaving us has caused

i wish i could wrap up with your heart; i wish we could have a brand new start. it's okay because i know that you're in heaven. when my time is up, I'm coming to heaven too. right now, god's holding one of your hands, and when i get there, I'll hold the other
one, too