I think and feel this way

I know I ruined my whole life
By thinking
Thinking I was worthless
Thinking everyone was better
I got myself in this pit
Deep down in there you will find me
Alone with my thoughts
With this thoughts
And on the floor of this pit
You will find my shattered dreams
My hopes and my strength
The walls are decorated
Decorated with the images of what I've lost
They remind me that everything was real
And that I don't make it up
They keep me sane on the one hand
But they also make me want it back
I wish every day for someone
Someone who give me a hand
A hand to pull me out
A person who can make me forget
Forget about what is in this pit
But unless that person comes
I will still climb up but fall back
And from time to time
And I think, I think...
Think about all the things
The things I regret not experiencing them

Life is pain, but without the pain you don't know you're alive
That is the hard painfull truth
Reason of life is trying to be happy with what you have got
I regret I cannot be happy because I think I do not have anything
Maybe I do have something but it is not what I need...