Why Do I Bother?

Why do I bother to get out of bed?
When nothing seems good about today,
And why do I bother to live anymore,
If I'm only living this way.

I want to improve for the sake,
Of my family and friends,
But I can't stop believing my life is hopeless,
And would be better if it came to an end.

Sometimes I stop and ask myself,
Why do I bother with waking each dawn
When really people would like me more,
If I had never been born.

People lie to me all the time,
They say that things will get better again,
But I know myself and I know the signs,
I know I'll attempt again.

I'm tired of life, tired of this world,
And trying to fake a smile,
I'm not even happy in my dreams,
My life is never worthwhile.

Why do I bother,
letting problems go on,
I am the problem,
And therefore I'm what's wrong.

So my friends ask me,
Why do I bother with life,
It is only because of your lies,
That I consider staying alive.