Unwanted

I study the night
with all my attention
The stars just stare
Especially the ascension
Looking dead at me
The only thing that would
Nothing will try
Nothing else could
The world is so scary
It seems so unreal
The world is so painful
Pain is what I feel
I hide a frown
And force a smile
Just for another
Unwanted denial
It seems I'm falling
in something so deep
One that never ends
One thats so steep
I want it to be over
I want to land
No one will care
If this was planned