Gone

You know when you feel alone,
and pray vain hopes,
that one of them will let you know:
"Hey, I am thinking of you, hows it goin'"
But it never happens?

You know when you want to cry to someone
that is not you
because you hope and pray
someone else could
destroy this self doubt
and try to understand what you are going through,
just to tell you that soon it will end
no more pain, and perhaps some forgiveness,
and there is no one left to cry to?

You know when your heart aches,
and for an instant,
you wish one of them felt the same
so they could love like you, hurt like you,
hate like you...
Understand you,
and no one ever turns up.
Or even if they read your words, they decide not to bother?
Deciding it would be best not to care...

You know all them moments,
when all you wanted was someone to show some love
and all you could find was this self hate?
You know them moments...
well they are all I know...

And I have grown tired...
I can no longer wait.
This loneliness, tears, and aching heart
may perhaps always haunt me,
but now I know, I know one thing;

I no longer wish these moments,
I no longer wish to be afraid

That my "someday" for love will never come
and I will just be a forgotten memory
left
to
fade...

So i give up on these petty feelings, left with only me to save.
have your happiness.
I am gone today