You give me all the pain
I could ever want to feel
You remind me that there is
No salvation
No forgiveness
And neither way I turn
Brings freedom
Forever I am yours
Forever I am lost
Pain
Oh glorious pain
But I am not allowed to feel
Without your permission
Nor destroy
What you leave broken
And so maybe I lay in bed all day
And maybe in my head
I think all I want
Of that which I cannot have
And perhaps you extend your hand
To all who suffer
Holding a chalice of fine wine
Of poison
And offer a taste
A glimpse of freedom
In a glass bottle
Caved in and capped
And maybe I lay drowning
In a waterfall of which I feel nothing
Emotionless yet in despair
Yet perhaps it's not water
But blood
And that I drown in what gives me life
As ironically it kills me
And maybe this is meaningless
And maybe I am lost
And maybe I am right here
And maybe hope has evaporated
And maybe time has stopped
And maybe feelings don't exist
And maybe I am not me
And maybe I am really free
And maybe this is a cry for help
