Blissful Missings

My thoughts of you are mixed,
even more unbearable than before,
I strive to live with you in my head,
although I cannot take it any more.

You make me feel so much at once,
first I'm blissful but then furious,
You also tend to make me feel,
even worse than ridiculous.

I wish a reason hid behind,
the true face of reality,
I long for the purpose,
of point blank brutality.

Although I believe no harm shall be done,
these thoughts will never be escaped,
once you truly open your eyes,
your life will be reshaped.

The time has come to let go,
of situations we cannot control,
allow what is to be,
let live take it's toll.