All i neded

All my life you have lied to me,all my life is waisted cause you where not here,all my life i wanted you to come back but now i am not so sure of what i want from you or better yet what i need from you i needed you there for me to guide me through life i needed you here to show me different ways i needed someone who was going to teach me right from wrong i needed someone but who?who is that person i needed? now i am 15 and you have not seen me in how long? you told me that you where going to change that you were going to quit doing that stupid stuff it is that you do i need you and you no that but right now....right now i am thinking that i should forget you and your face i am thinking that you will never change you are going to still lie to me and one day when you get out of there your going to come to me for money because i will have that life that i have always dreamed of having i always told you what it is i wanted i want to be married with kids and have a house of my own and i want to be a pediatrician i Love to help other children but you would not no cause you could not even take care for your own all i needed was a mother..to love ans care for me like my friends mother do i wanted that real family not this step one that i have but i guess for now it will all have to do and all i needed was you!