How many times do I have to say Im sorry
To make you believe, I really need you here
I used to cry on your shoulder
Whenever I got scared
And now your out there
So far away
I admit, I spun out of control
Almost took my life
All because of one night
That was because I trusted you
But once you left
I crashed again
And the oxygen got the blue
Inside my veins
So I thought of you
As my arm got stained
With what was left to keep me alive
You were never here
To save me
You never even
Held me
You wanted my heart
But you wouldnt give me yours
And Im pretty sure
Thats a memory that will
Always hurt me
The hits, the punches
The names and the screaming
It was all too much
So I lost feeling
I made a decision
To ease the pain
I have an addiction
And Im not okay
What did you expect from me?
I was always crazy
You were the one
Who decided to love me
Though I know you never did
And Ill admit
I made myself suffer
Because I just couldnt stand it
You dont know how it feels
To wake up suffocating
You dont know what its like
To always be thinking about it
But by now, Ive gotten used to it
The plastic smiles become useful
