I can't feel anything
And I can't stop
The feeling has taken over me
In my conscious mind
It lurks, reminding me
Of how good it feels
How much better it is, when the blood runs
Runs down my arm from the crevices
The tiny holes where the pin entered
Lines like stitches
Lines like veins
I'm trembling in this place of sanctuary
Because I know when I go home
It won't feel like home
You'll make me scared again
Another night crying
Until I finally close my eyes
While the water floods my pillow
And I pretend to be fine
They didn't say goodnight
