When I looked into your eyes I only saw hate. When I talked to you all I heard was bitterness. Was I really that hard to love? I guess so, cause you were never there when I did something marvelous, or something great. You were never there when I fell and scraped my knee, or when I cried. But you were there to laugh and tease me when I did something terrible, or bad. You were there when I made a huge mistake, like trusting some one who only looked for my defaults, or my mistakes. You never once looked for my good qualities, or perfections.
When I was near you all I heard was words that brought me down, or made me cry. When I would talk to you, you would tell me how much you hated having me around. Was I really that easy to be hated? I guess so, because you always had a rude comment or a bad thing to say towards me. I never heard one thing good about me come out of your mouth. You always told me that you could see me be a failure in life. That I would never do anything good in my life time, besides dying.
But now your gone. Your dead to me, now. You were never real. You were me. The me who hated life, who thought I was useless and wasn't good for ANYTHING. But things change, just like how I changed. I found someone who actually cares and loves me, for me! Not for the fake me. I changed my life, to be farther away from you. My so hateful side. I decided that life actually has a purpose and that I want to live. That my family does truly love me. That my friends are going to go different ways and that I won't always have the same friends. Maybe, I'll have a few friends that will always be there. But I'll always be changing, my life, friends, and mind.
