I am my parents disappointment

I am my parents disappointment.
I am their tears and sorrow.
For all the pain I caused yesterday and all the pain that I’ll cause tomorrow.
I try and try to make them smile.
I try and try to be their every fulfillment.
But no matter what I do and how hard I try I am always their disappointment!
I went from job to job and none of them seem to last.
I went through many cars because I’m not that great of a driver.
And through every thing I did they always stood there telling me things will get better.
So I ask myself many things.
I pray many times.
But to live a life they dreamed of I just cant, I can only live mine.
I never wanted to make them cry.
I never wanted them to hold their heads down.
I only wanted them to be happy and gossip about how I made them proud.
I can see it in their eyes.
I can feel it in their touch.
My soul burns and my heart always hurts so much.
For I am my parents disappointment.
I am their one mistake.
God please help me right all the wrong that I seem to make!!
God please give me the answer.
Lord what can I do?
Please hear my cries and show me the way that is true.
For I am my parent disappointment.
I am their tears and sorrow.
For all the pain I caused yesterday and all the pain that I’ll cause tomorrow.

Mommy and daddy I am sorry for every mistake I ever made. For every time you were ever disappointed. I am sorry.