Pain

Why do i have to wake up to pain,
I fall asleep in pain and wake up in it.
I want to kill myself but for some reason i cant,
I think about overdosing on pills but what would my family and friends think?
Its mainly their fault i want to do it though.

From day one they've hurted me,
I not the beautifulest girl in the world and i know it.
Why do people have to remind me though don't they see I'm hurting already.
My own brothers and sisters do it to me.

I've lost the few people that cared about me and i want them back,
Doesn't anybody see i need a friend. ah real friend again.
Why cant i go to sleep and not wake up,
I want to be loved so bad so why are people denying me love.
HELP ME PLEASE I'm about to go and do something stupid but would anybody care i think not