A sweet suicide

When i was a lil girl i used to be so normal...
as the dayz go by like seasons..
ive changed so much u
would never believe it

my heart was always tender..my love for people never quivered
books was all i read..studying
getting all A'z

i went from getting bullied
to papers getting thrown at my head
from 2 friends down to none
staring at the ground was all i ever done

i started geting misrable
each and everyday
i cried almost every night
woke up everymornin wit nuthing but fears

barley ate a thing
didnt sleep at all
which made the bullying a lil much worst
people laughed at me and dey made me cry
i tried taking away the pain
wondering what 2mmrow would bring

popping pillz everynite
addiction that i just couldnt stop
eagar to stop the pain
but its goin on like
neverless rain

a sight of my reflection
as i look in the mirror
dark black circles around my eyes
hair looking like it all died out
scars around my face
scaring me senseless

so angrey at the world
i take a shoe and throw it at the wall
a glance at the ground
i see a lil glass

that glass has change my life around
flash backs of how my life was
torn my heart inside out
i wanted IN
but they wanted OUT
revenge was all i was about

but i was not foolish
that just wouldnt help
i wanted the easy way out
and a painless start
thats what i was all about

my tention was to stay alive
i didnt want what people said about
me
spread my heart inside out

i take that piece of glass
but before i end my life
i wrote a letter

"DEAR MOM AND DAD,
IM GOIN AWAY 4 AWHILE OR SHALL I SAY 4EVA...
I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW
THAT I NEVER MENT TO HURT U BOTH...
I KNOW U GUYS PROLLY
DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM SAYING JUST KNOW THAT IM GONE...
I CRY AND I THINK ABOUT ALL THE OLD TIMES WE SHARED TOGATHER,
LAUGHING TOGETHER,DAMN THOSE WERE THE TIMES...BUT THOSE DAYS R ALL OVER
AS I SIT COLD HEARTED
ON THE GROUND WITH A PIECE OF GLASS BY MY VIENS...
ENDLESS BLOOD THAT JUST WOULDNT REST..
I LOVED U BOTH BUT I JUST HAD TO LET GO..
I CANT LIVE THIS WAY NOMORE!!
GOODBYE GOODBYE FOR GOOD!!
LOVE
~YA 1 AND ONLI
DAUGHTER~

i cried and cried till i saw darkness
i can taste the saltyness from my tears
i watched in the mirror
as i smuge in all my blood mixed with tearsz

im left this world with nothing at all
hopefully my life would go on