PLEASE GOD...

All i wanted was you
all i wanted was to be with you
i threw ever thing away just to be with you,don't you love me anymore? did you really love me? god am i that stupid to really think that a guy like him would actually fall for a girl like me i am nothing to him or anyone out here,all i wanted was to feel loved,i wanted to now how it felt to be held to be held by a man like him, GOD ANSWER ME why are you MAKING us talk when i now that he really is playing me he is a coke head and why is it that i still want to be with him? i need you to answer me i need you to help me

i am losing everyone and everything that i had ever wanted over his guy that my dad told me to stay away from i want you to help me i cant do this on my own i need some help PLEASE....PLEASE help me cant you hear me cry? cant you feel my heart beating? cant you see that i am dying inside slowly dying from all of this pain he is putting me through i feel like a failure that i am retarded i feel like i can not go on anymore i just need help PLEASE GUIDE ME...PLEASE HELP ME to forget his face to forget the way he held me to forget the day i met him if you will not let me to forget him i will kill myself i cant go on living this way and when i do take my life please tell people not to come to my funeral that i let down everyone and even myself so here i go...............................