Fake

These fake smiles that i put on
i cant believe you don't see through them
there not as real as they seem

these times that i choke back tears
i always thought you saw it
but i guess you see through that either

these fears of mine
i cannot relieve
the pain i feel
i cant believe

i feel so fake
how i always act
I'm not the person
you think i am

if i could stop time
best believe i would
i would change the past
the things i never understood

i just wish i could show you
the way i truly am
but losing you is a problem
and no one will understand

I'm tired of being someone I'm not
just to feel OK
I'm sick of being pushed around
each and every day

i want this pain to go away
so i can be myself
but these problems that I'm dealing with
are not to be undealt

i don't know how much longer i can stand to be around
losing yourself if hard on you
but its harder to be found

no one will ever notice
the pain that i have to feel
no one will ever focus
on the the girl i am for real