What hurts the most

It's the scars that no one sees, the wounds that never heal, the pain no one knows about; that's what hurts the most.
It's the torture you live through every day, the sickening wish for it all to end, death, that's the scariest thing.
It's the only thing you wish for, the only thing you fear, the only thing you wish you never thought of, that's what you dream of.
It's the escape from the torment, the safety net you hope to fall into, the one thing that hurts the most, it's the only thing you run to.
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idk i'm just so tired of living, hurting, and eventually failing. i just really want to give up.