So Lost...

What is my crime?
What have I done to become so shunned
Why am I tormented
Why am I the one to be the butt end of this horrid joke
Life is such a cruel mistress
Yet one we can only escape by paying the highest price
And none would willingly pay that price unless they were to experience that which I have

To be turned away by the one you thought loved you with all her heart
To be thrown away by the one whom carries your heart
To be looked upon and then spat upon
No mortal blow can ever wound as horribly as this one has my heart
I feel lost
I feel confused
Am I truly the keeper of her heart?
Am I a monster to be thrown in the rubbish heap?
I now no longer know who I am.
I now no longer know where I am.
I think that this world cares not for my existence
I think that this world would rejoice in the extinguishing
Of one more petty soul
And so I shall take this knife
And slowly plunge it into the heart
The heart that beat to the step of her drum
And end my now unimportant existence
And with my last breath gone
I shall slump down to the ground
Dead and forgotten

(im not suicidal, just a little depressed =()