Suicide note

Knives and blades,
graves and spades.
blood and pain,
going insane.

suicide is tempting,
don't you think.
it's a better story than,
watching The titanic sink.

I'm not afraid of death,
life means nothing to me.
i like to think about killing myself,
dead is what I'm meant to be.

i don't know why i cut myself,
i guess it feels good.
it relieves me from the other pain,
my friends don't think i should.

i have tried a couple times to kill myself,
but i never loose enough blood.
every one doubts me,
they don't think i would.

i still have some hope left,
so I'm going to try again.
maybe this time it would work,
take away my pain.

it's only because my heart,
has been broken too many times.
my hill of blood,
begins to climb.

so my life ends here.
you think my true love will save me?
doubt it,
because the guy i love says we'll never be.

i told my friends I'm going,
i don't want to say goodbye.
but my life is over now,
I'm leaving without a sigh

hey, this is my suicide note. tell me what to improve on. thanks it would mean alot to me.