Heartbreaking.
I am truly speechless. Wonderful and overwhelmingly sad in the same time. I haven't read a piece that touched me so much in a while. I can relate to this in a way and really can't express how much I like it. Amazing, excellently written, and the ending line is simply superb and endlessly effective.
I am not able to express everything I felt while I was reading this, but I am in awe, truly impressed with depths of your poetry (as always).
Keep writing!