CONFUSED

I so need help to fight this war

Inbetween a guy I love and one that I don't love anymore

One is a friend that treats me really hateful

The other is my boyfriend and his love I find grateful.

It's so damn hard and I'm really confused

I don't know what to do I feel so used

Everytime I ask for help, I end up losing someone that I cant live without

And I truly love him beyond any doubt

My only question is what do I do?

When I know I love one and the other is untrue

Do I get rid of my friend just to keep the other?

Or do I just live with it as I lay here and suffer?