Having No One, Wanting One

You thank me?
No, I thank you
For burning a hole through me
And killing me softly, too.

You need some quiet
Well then I'm gone.
I'm dead from my diet
Of having no one.

You were always there, but not anymore
You've got your problems and I have one.
I feel fire burning my core
And I've been tossed out into the sun.

Your anger roars at me and i refuse to feed it
But it feeds itself without my aid.
How can I get you to calmly quit,
And go back to all the games we played?

I feel dismay and I feel betrayed,
My heart cascades over your parade.
You smile away from me-- you're jaded
And all the love I made has faded.

I look at you with your new smile,
And my heart is in your hand.
Why don't you look into my eyes a while,
To remember something grand?

The love we had was long,
And always seemed so strong.
I felt like I belonged
But I must have been wrong.

So keep thanking me, while I thank you
For breaking this heart that was true.
You always told me, and I told you, too
That we'd both know when we were through.

So pack your bags and take your pillows,
I don't want to smell your hair.
I'll remember all the highs and lows,
After I can breath real air.

And when I think of you I will remember
All the plans we had.
I will think of all the golden embers
That now just make us sad.

You said that you were mine forever
And I said that I was yours.
Darling I still love you however
And my heart would like to soar.

Why dont you take my hand so I can grab my heart
And feel alive again, like I play a part.
What would be so dumb in that?-- Wouldnt it be smart?
To have someone who loves you and never will depart?

I think I want you back now,
My tears are coming back.
When I think of you I "wow"
As my heart turns black.

Black because I gave you up,
And you let go of my hand.
Black because I filled my cup
With something that is bland.

If you were here my cup wouldn't be full of sand
It would be warmth with nectar.
I'm going to look for you as my soul demands
Until I find my heart's protector.

I want you and I need you
I don't want to go on alone.
I hope you still love me, too
I don't want to dig for bones.