I am here
U look at me
I look fine
U cant see what im hiding
I look happy
I try to keep it to myself
That way I wont loose anyone
So many things i want to say
I know i cant im not good at talking
We go out and all have funn
You cant see what im holding back
I go to cry
I pull my hair over my face
I wont let u see how im so hurt
I fell sick
I dont feel like me
I smile and go along
I fell scared and alone
I hug u and make jokes
I fell lost
I look up to u
You dont really know me
I am much different when im alone
The past haunts me so much
I try to be ok
But then i get these alful memories
I keep them to myself
I dont know y
Its because i cant deal with what i have to say
I dont understand
But when we all hang out u dont rely know me
