All I Do...(Really REALLY short)

Im lost without your eyes to guild me.
I cant become what you want me to be.
I refuse to let my only fantasy die.
Im suddenly unable silence my lie.
I waken with the faint smell of you.
I hope knowing it wont come true.
I stare at my inevitable demise,
upon which I begin to silently cry.
I dont know a single way out.
Im filled with suspense and doubt.
I wait staring at four plain walls.
I know whats best for one and all.
I struggle to tell myself whats best
I swallow down the pills Ill soon digest.
I close my eyes understanding whats done.
If I get impatient Ill pull out the gun.
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