Suicidal note

No more do I wish to live
for no more do i want you to give
me the hope for something happier,
In my had i hold a blade
remembering all the promises we made
which once gave me happiness now gives me pain
I don't think i will be able to feel the same
but it doesn't matter to you at all
because if you did you would fall
all the way to the ground
which is the only place i can be found
so don't look at me in shame
because you are the only one i blame