Sorrow and pain

Written in November 2007

There is a part of me
That says I am hurt,
That says I am disillusioned,
Something that I can not quite see,
Something so unreal,
A heart that is so broken,
A hurt no-one else can feel.

But this thing,
This feeling,
Will it always be there?
For this I know,
For you I would never be able to share!

So I push this feeling,
To the back of my mind.
All the thoughts of deceptions
And what may have happened.
Sometimes,
When I have almost forgotten,
It comes back with such ferocity,
Deep sorrow and heartache.

Leaves me feeling
So lost,
So Sad.
We know what caused this,
It was that fateful morning,
Upon my return,
When a hotel bill I found!

It was with disbelief,
For this just could not be,
It is just an illusion,
Belong to someone else.

This sorrow I feel,
must so be,
A lost memory,
Or something else?
I'll never know,
Whatever it is,
I know for sure,
I can never let this feeling show!