Lying there thinking maybe youll change
Alone in the bed whilst your downstairs, the feelings so strange.
I wonder whether to make a move,
But then again its me that you have to prove.
Im heartbroken on how you have treated me,
And from your reaction you dont see
The night started so sweet and calm and I begged you that if we go,
For you to take it easy and drink slow.
You laugh and say that nothing will go wrong,
And from that I thought the same as we were so strong.
But you didnt take it slow but drank and drank,
And eventually your mind went blank,
You didnt even remember I was there,
Didnt even wonder or care.
Getting a drink was more important to you,
And you were so proud that it didnt matter when you dropped one all over my shoe.
You gloated about your free round,
And sat back out of your face without making a sound.
All I asked was for a sorry that you meant,
But you looked at me with resent.
I wonder why I put up with it.
Why did I go back to yours to be ignored and yelled at?
Theres no love, just hate in the air,
And you demand your stuff out of my bag without a care.
You finally appear at seven and climb into bed,
And you elbow automatically connects with my head.
I dont even get a sorry just a tut and a huff and puff,
And I honestly though right Ive had enough.
Im getting my things and walking out that door,
But again I cant bring myself to do it and leave my bag on the floor.
You wake up and demand me to speak,
But I lay there staring into the abyss, my heart so weak.
You sarcastically say sorry but dont see what you did wrong,
I should have caught the drink; it was my fault all along.
I look at you with eyes of hate and a heart with no faith,
And you look at me as if I should know my place.
All I wanted was for to realise that you did wrong and show me youre sorry not just say it,
But you look at me like Im some worthless piece of sh!t,
Theres no love in your eyes or in the way you talk anymore.
So I pick up my things, take one last look and walked out that door.
