My life is like an illness (bullying poem)

The happiness is turning sour
This will be my final hour
I took the pills out the draw
This little girl will be no more

I tried to be the best I could
But the things you did I never understood,
They formed a crowd with me in the middle
She was big and I was little
You were meant to help but you joined in
Kicking, punching you really did sin
You only wanted me to see
That my parents could no longer help me

The pain the fighting the stealing I endured
Would never stop, never for sure,
I don't want to die
But there's no other option
I only now want to make you see
What it felt like to be me

I chickened out, I never died
I never went to heaven in that sky,
I thought that things would change
It did a lot, I give my life one last shot
But still when people look at me,
They take a look but don't really see
They see the outer shell not what's inside
My life crumbled away. my heart had died

In reality I might still be here,
But my life is one big fear
And im really scared that one day
I wont wake up, I'll disappear

It's so hard to go through life
And each harsh word is like a hit with a knife
To cover you face
And to walk all alone
And to wish and wish that you were unknown