You question me.
as to why I am me
i sit here and explain
now can't you see?
but things only get worse.
as my heartaches.
my tears begin to fall
as this earth quakes.
He doesn't understand me,
he just let me fall.
I can't stand this
even if I were to stand him at all.
He doesn't understand me
he just sees right through
as if i was a glass door.
He tries to get me to calm down
to tell me that things would be better if i was just myself.
and then i tried to explain
the heartache oh and that stupid dumb pain
I sat there trying to think
the words wouldn't come
and there was a lump in my throat.
why does not he understand me
should i be afraid?
I am who I am
because of some stupid heartbreak
it made me go crazy
I did not care anymore
i let my life sink to the ocean floor.
and then i met him.
the man of my dreams
and did not get risen from the ocean
he was about to dump me
when i came to my senses.
i tried to explain
and still he did not seem to listen.
I sit here still
in love with him
and still with him
in this relationship
i have recently learned.
he understands what I have been through.
I did not want to lose him and
I hope he thinks the same too.
but everyday we are apart
is another weight added on
to the wrong side of heartbreak.
he doesn't see i love him
probably more than he loves me.
but he demands he doesn't need to meet anyone new.
he has found the girl of his dreams
why would he need anyone else.
every time he gets drunk i seem to annoy him.
i don't mean to i just did not want to see him like that.
i love him and i did not want to see him hurt.
i try to cope with this living fear
for him leaving me maybe near.
i hope that he can see
I am not out to hurt him.
i love him and just want him to be my forever.
but then i think forever is not long enough.
and neither is my life.
i sit and think and pace everyday.
and cant wait for him to talk to me
i sit and i wait by the phone.
only waiting to call him
for he will be at home soon.
I love him
and don't want to leave him alone.
and i don't want to be alone.
he is my world.
my life.
my dream.
out of everyone i know
he understands me like no one else.
hes my best friend
