My Crush

She told me she likes him but how do I tell her that Im more his type?
Am I wrong for wanting the boy she wanted first?
Truthfully, he is more for me, than he is for her
I know I didnt realize it until she opened up my eyes to see his perfections
How could I possibly have a crush on a boy I wouldnt have given a second glance?
When looking at him; I see pass his gorgeous eyes & electrifying smile
I see the soul of a person I would love to get to know
With him I could really be completely happy
To bad my loyalty won't let me be a back-stabber
On the other hand, she is not with him; so he is available
How will she take it when I tell her that I'm secretly crushing on the one she claims as "hers"?
I wish I didn't have to go through this but he's everything I'm looking for
Why does he have to be everything she's looking for too?
Does this make me a bad friend?
So how do I carry on a conversation about him with her?
When I can only see him with me
I try my best not to think about being with him (as more than friends)
How can I look past something that I want to see (every day of my life)?
It's nearly impossible; I want him to be mine
But how can something be mine when it's already spoken for?
Do I suppose to just hide my feelings & wonder what if?
Instead of living life & saying what was?
Will she hate me when she finds out or will she be happy that I have finally found bliss?
Even though it's with her dream, is it going to matter?
I try to forget that I am crushing him because I care about her feelings
But in the back of my mind, I am being reminded that "My crush is not mine alone"