WOW!!!! This is a deep poem and I can feel the dilema in this. You got me when you said, "I know your feelings aren't real." It's like "he" knows how "you" feel about him, but to act on those feelings is something that he can't do. I say keep doing what you're doing but try to refrain. I know it's hard, and I'm still struggling to get my feelings in check.

Thats a really amazing poem.
the transition is a little iffy - but i know exactly wat u mean.
my ex cheated on me and i felt all those things when i was with him.
he was a real jerk off.
lol
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