I am the Silent Observer

Over the years,
I was the silent observer.
Hidden in the shadows,
I was the secret preserver.

I've been through depression,
I've had all the heartache,
I've felt the warm touch of a woman,
I've seen unjustful fights.

I've watched all the other kids,
Get what they have wanted,
I've seen all the poor kids,
Who have only been taunted.

I've made friends with everyone,
And have been lied to forever,
I've heard all of the drama,
And I simply can't take it.

I've been falsely accused,
Over and over, I've been slowly abused,
What has this world come to,
When friends just don't want to hear-

Just don't want to hear what would set them free.

I've sat at the bus stop,
In mind hoping someone
would stop and talk,
Just to talk about anything.

For I long for that subtle interaction.

I've heard all the horrible things
That go on in the news,
I've seen past all the make up,
To see the reporters dry tears.

I've been on and off meds,
People think I'm simply crazy,
If they only knew what happens in my head,
My thoughts are simply scattered,Grey, and hazy.

I've lost hope in mankind,
I've lost hope in our future,
I've lost hope in preserving nature,
I've lost hope in human compassion.

Everyday I simply sit and watch,
Eyes set on the world,
It all is so clear to me,
Yet the people who inhabit are so-

So foreign to me...
But in my Life,
My simple fifteen years,
I've been through so much.

I've prophesied,
I've familiarized,
I've been terrorized,
I've been fed lies.

Propaganda plasters our schools,
Graffiti covers our structural history,
Young teenagers don't abide by the rules,
What this world has come to is a mystery.

I have found that out of all my friends,
Only one remains true,
She never speaks a word of what my heart pens,
She has always been there to see me through

People have told me,
I write so maturely for being only fifteen,
But whoever reads these anyways,
I simply write what I have always seen.

In my mind I will always know,
I am the secret preserver,
Hidden in the shadows,
I am the silent observer-

And over the years...

I've simply given up...