As I Close These Eyes

As I Lay And Close These Eyes,
These Eyes That Have Been Said To Mesmerize.

I Will Think Of The Days That Past,
And Lay Myself Down To Rest At Last.

To End It All Is Just One Wish,
And To Hear That Sound Of The Swish.

As I Close These Blue Eyes,
I Pray To God For A New Surprise.

I Pray That Maybe I Should Not Awaken,
For It Is My Life That He Has Taken.

I Just Wish That It Wasn't I,
Who Took The Knife Just To Die.

For I Cut My Arms Right At The Wrist,
And As I Did I Made My Fist.

I Looked Away As I Cut The Skin,
When I Was Finished I Looked At Where The Skin Had Been.

I Cut It Open On Each Side,
And Then I Fell To The Ground And Cried.

All My Fears Would Soon Go Away,
And Maybe Just Maybe They Won't Find Me Here Today.

I'll Wash Away My Fears With Blood,
But It Looks Like The Aftermath Of A Flood.

As I Close These Eyes Of Mine,
I Realize I Have Crossed That Fine Line.

The Line Between Life And Death,
As I Take My Final Breath.

I Feel The Tears Roll Down My Face,
As I See My Reflection Of See Such Disgrace.

I Close My Eyes Barely Gripping Life,
As My Hand Holds Tighter Around The Knife.

Crying Slow And Painful Tears,
As I Now Realize All My Fears.

I Never Was Afraid Of You,
Or Anything That You Would Do.

I Was Afraid Of Dying At Your Hands,
And Being Part Of Your Sickening Plans.

Being Part Of What You Had Coming,
And Tired Of Hiding From You Just To Keep Running.

You Couldn't See The Pain You Caused,
Not Even Every Time You Paused.

The Blood That Was Always On The Floor,
You'd Clean It Up Before It Would Get Through The Door.

You Didn't Want The World To See,
All The Pain You Were Causing Me.

The Pain And Suffering I Endured,
Was More Than The Opposite That Has Ever Been Cured.

So As I Close My Eyes; These Eyes,
I Finally Stop And Do Not Continue My Cries.

For These Eyes Are Not Worth Anything,
For In Future Years Its Pain They Would Bring.

These Eyes Of Mine Are Too Tired To Blink,
So As I Close Them All I Shall Do Is Think.

Think That It's Over And My Suffering Shall End,
Think That No Longer For You I Shall Bend.

As I Close These Eyes Of Mine,
Yours And Mine Had Intertwined.

But Now As I Close My Eyes,
I Just Hope Nobody Else Has To Die.

I Hope That You Can't Get Your Hands,
On Anybody Else Trying To Use Them In Your Plans.

So As I Close My Glassy Blue Eyes,
I Realize You Too Had Cried.

And Now To End I'll Close My Eyes,
And Alone Now I'll Let You Realize.