Is This Real?

All this pain I feel,
I never thought it would come true.
This is so surreal,
I shouldn't have fallen in love with you.

I want this to be worthwhile,
I want to hear your voice on the phone.
I want to see your smile,
My heart is slowly turning to stone.

I'm sick and tired of crying,
I'm sick and tired of being scared.
I hope you know I'm really trying,
I really thought you cared.

I'll walk around the streets,
Thinking about what I should have done.
Listening to some depressing beats,
Falling in love isn't much fun.

I will always love you,
I have loved you for a really long time.
Nobody can help me through,
This love that is a crime.