What Is It I cant See?

So confused

I dont know what to do.

Does he love me?

Or only pretending?

Am I going to be lost?

Its him my hearts depending.

I love him,

But lately, Things seem different.

Is it only me?

Or is it something I can't see?

We're always together and I'm pretty happy.

But what is this feeling?

Its a dark cloud full of doubt.

What is this all about?

Someone just tell me!

What is it I cant see?

Is there something really wrong?

Or just my mind playing tricks?

So I wont end up hurt.

Maybe I am pushing him away?

But really I want him to stay.

Is this how god gets his kick's?

How low can my sadness grow?

My heart is breaking,

But maybe I'm faking?

Maybe I'm not used to this.

Where someone actually loves me?

I'm a wave lost at sea.

Eyes clouded like a rain day sky.

Sad yet still happy.

Maybe Im just loosing it?

Going crazy, I dont know.

But maybe its just My heart trying to show!

How do I fight this?

What is it that I've missed?

Is it me or am I just crazy?