I saw my dad today!!!!

Today i was in the car
I was listen to mucis
Talkin to my friend
I saw my dad
Right away my heart was filled with pain
All of the sudden
I was on a rollercoaster
It was going so fast
I wanted to die
All the bad memories were comeing at once
It wouldnt stop
Faster and faster
I felt sick
He looked at me
With angry eyes
Like he was talking but not saying a words
Did he know i was his daughter?
My dad always takes my life away
I dont know how he just does it
He stood there and looked right at me
This time i didnt want to give him a hug
I couldnt move
I tryed to pretend i was ok
My mom asked me what was wrong
I replied Nothing
I knew if i talk i would cry
He left me tonight feeling like crap
I feel alful
I cut alot so his face would drift away
I am bleeding with every cut i make
All the cuts tell the different stories i hold inside
I promised him befor i wouldnt tell
I still wont
I need to friend to help me tonight
My dad who i love so much
Im so scared of

I cant stop crying
When i see him he always has a way of hurting me

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