Why does he still linger in my mind?
He's moved to another....
Why can I not?
My friends see me looking at him,
And ask if I still feel for him...
And I do...
He is always on my mind...
But no one can know
Because letting them know,
Or somehow it getting to him,
Would be like admitting defeat
Which is not an option.
Denial is what it comes to
Him?! Yeah right, been there done that.
But how I wish I could go back.
To the days he was mine
He held me,
And whispered words of love into my ear
Making my heart melt
As an ice cube would in the summer
But I made a huge mistake.
Took my baby for granted
Thought he'd always be around
But he went on to her
And its not that I'm jealous...
Well not exactly...
I'm happy for him,
Really I am.
I'm glad he found someone who...
Who wont...
Break
His
Heart...
Ha..
Thats still kind of ironic to say...
He's the one with the genuine smile on now...
The one who's flirting and happy...
I can't help but think...
Hope even...
The feelings he has for her...
Could still be in him for me?
Yeah...
No way...
He cares so much about her,
She's all he ever talks about.
Do you think...
That maybe...
No thats another hopeful thought.
I get to many of those.
And they just end up...
Hurting me?
No... not really
I expect to be hurt.
Its much easier to hate someone than love someone
In our society,
Hate
Is so easy,
Someone makes a comment
"Oh my God I hate you!!"
We've all done it...
Oh well...
Society is about pain
Sadness
Depression
And disappointment
But for now,
I'm stuck in the falseness I've built around myself
Not caring
Not acting on my feelings
Just...
Being.
