I always thought it different in a way no one could ever see
i was always on the clouds he watched me cry and plea
it was like a nightmare that in my fear would never end
he was like farmer ready to kill and i was the lonely hen
i was so scared and lonely and believed all he said
and even though i trust him completely there is no erasing what he did
it will always hurt and the pain will never subside
its just that i can't believe that he hurt me and now he is trying to hide
i just can't seem to understand
why he wanted to hurt me so bad
i really did love him and i really did care
but the things the most is the thought that he would dare
he lied to me in the most disgusting way he could
he said he still cared and i fell for the words like a fool
and after the dirty deed was done i felt so lonely inside
its like he took me outside of myself and wouldn't give me back even if i yelped
and now even though its been a while it still really makes me cry
and now i still wonder why the guy i loved
and who loved me
in an emotional way wanted me to die
