What was i thinking?!
why didn't i just say hello!
gosh, you're just too amazing.
i can't even tell you how much.
when i saw you today...
all of the memories came flooding back.
of everything.
of when you called me your girl.
when we would stay up late into the night
just talking.
when you would do anything
just to see me smile.
when we would spend forever
just saying goodbye.
and how you wouldn't leave
without telling me how much you loved me.
the memory of when you
wrapped your arms around me
in a warm, loving hug.
i thought about all the sweet little comments
that you used to say.
and of course, every single one of them
lit up my sky.
back when you would do anything
just to talk to me, and to see me.
even if you were in risk of being caught.
when you cared about me and no one else.
then, remembering when it all faded away.
when it all left,
and there was no more me and you.
and thinking of how much it hurt...
and how i thought that i didn't love you anymore...
but then today..
i proved myself wrong.
when i saw your face...
i couldn't stop the butterflies.
i saw the way your eyes sparkled
and my heart started to thump inside of me
like it was ready to burst out.
as soon as i saw your sweet smile,
i started to melt inside.
everyone kept asking me if it was you,
and they'd be shocked.
but they don't see what i see,
and what i see is the most amazing boy in the world.
the whole time, i couldn't breathe.
you literally took my breathe away.
then later, when you passed me on your way out...
and i was too scared to even bother
to even look up and say hi...
so i pretended to be busy...
then a friend tells me that you were looking at me
the whole time.
i regretted not saying hi.
because the truth is
boy, i still love you.
and i wish that you and i never had to end.
we had something amazing...
tay, i realized today how much i truly miss you
its more than ever.
and i wish that i could just see you more
and talk to you more.
please, don't tell me that i will never see you again.
you mean the world to me.
