Hatred & Mercy

You're full of carelessness and deceptions,
and you pointed me to the wrong directions,
you look down on my life,
when i expected you to be my wife.

I guess I was dreaming too far ahead,
now my eyes turned red,
with hatred and sorrow,
now I'm making this lost love a horror.

If you're hatting me,
let it be,
because i hate you too,
now I'll give you this pain I've went through,
and this loneliness I've been feeling for the past days,
you'll no longer see the sun rays,
just pure darkness,
like your being pressured and blamed for the mess,
any second you'll feel like you just wanna die,
but instead I wanna see you cry,
the heavy and fearless drops of tears,
that might even last for years.

Sadly you don't even care,
since you've fallen to someone else's fair,
i knew it all,
but I was too scared to lose you and now I fall,
you left me nothing but memories,
faded love and darkened cries.

You should have just told me sooner,
but you choose to give me more sorrow,
and pain stabbed into my heart,
for you this sounds like an art.

I want you to hate or either love me,
so that you'll never forget how this became to be.
Blowing hatred and mercy,
i hope I'm not going crazy.