Long Version of [Never Really Were the One]

I always said, "I'm holding onto forever, and I'm never letting go."
I used to mean it; I used to believe it too.
Back then, I could have fooled my heart to believe anything.

They say you always put some love on the line,
But I put my whole heart; I gave you my whole heart.
It never was enough for you though...
Or maybe you just never loved me back.

I never asked to be your life,
---Just to be a part of it---
But maybe even that was asking too much.

You always meant more to me then I meant to you.
--I could have loved you forever.
--I could have held you in my arms forever.
And it still wouldn't have been long enough.

You never showed me that you loved me,
Although you never failed to say the words.
It's a good thing your actions have always spoken louder.

And now...

My heart is fluttering like your wings,
And the butterflies in my stomach remind me of you...
-----As you fly away-----

--You never really were the one to keep your two feet on the ground--

I guess the time has come...
I shouldn't really be surprised,
-----And yet I am-----

So when you asked me to set you free, what was I supposed to do??
Let you fly away because I knew it would make you happy?
Or keep you grounded because I didn't want to lose you?
Either way, I'd be acting on love...
--But I chose to set you free.

If I was smart enough to be strong,
I would've said...

"Take me now, or lose me forever."

But instead, as you spread your wings, and were about to take flight,
With love I said...

"Put me in your heart, and keep me there. Fly away and be free. Fulfill all your dreams, and when everything you've ever wanted to do is done, come back to me, but I can't promise I'll still be here. I'm putting my whole heart on the line, and who knows how far you'll fly...You just might cross the line."

And missing you got easier everyday,
Because I knew that every day spent away from you,
Was just one day closer to the next time I'd see you.

But I kept falling for you,
And you were never there to catch me.
I fell for you so many times,
--But you were always too busy flying away.

As much as I wanted you to fight for me,
All I really wanted was for you to want me back.
But it didn't matter how hard I loved you,
--Because you were always too busy flying away.

You always loved your freedom.
You always loved to fly.
And I had to fight so hard just to feel...
Just to feel like I was still alive.

And I used to miss you so much when that happened,
But it never seemed like you missed me.
And I guess because of that,
--I just stopped missing you.

People who are meant to be together,
Always find their way in the end...
--But I don't think we have a way.

I gave you my whole heart,
And if that's not enough for you,
--Then I'm not enough for you.

Maybe you never meant to hurt me,
But it doesn't matter anymore,
Because in the end,
--It all hurts just the same.

You know I can always be there for you,
But I can't only be there for you when you need me.
So when you're tired of flying,
Do you really think I'll be there to catch you?

-----I love you-----
And I probably always will,
But nobody can fly forever,
And sooner or later, somehow,
You need to come down.

So I'm just letting you know that when you do,
I've already put my heart on the line...
The line that you crossed so long ago.

I was holding onto forever,
But I think its time to let you go.

--You never really were the one to keep your two feet on the ground--

January 31, 2008