STARTING OVER GETS OLDER BUT ALL THE NEWER TO ME EVERYDAY BECAUSE I HAVE RELIED ON ONLY THE SAFE THINGS AND NOW I HAVE TO WORK SO MUCH HARDER. I KNOW THIS GIRL WHO MAKES HER LIFE SO EASY BY TRYING TO PUSH THINGS OVER AND FORGET ABOUT THEM AND DO THE SAME THING EVERY TIME IT HAPPENED AGAIN. I LOVE AND I HATE BUT EACH PERSON IS JUDGED BY THE WAY THEY PRESENT THEMSELVES. I KNOW THIS GIRL WHO WANTS THE WORST IN HER LIFE TO HAPPEN TO GET AWAY AND COMPLAIN TO MAKE PEOPLE FEEL SORRY FOR HER BECAUSE THATS WHERE SHE FINDS HER COMFORT, SHES NOT THE ONLY ONE. PEOPLE EVERY WHERE JUDGE WHO WE ARE, I'M NOT SAYING ITS GOOD OR BAD, I'M SAYING THAT PEOPLE WANT TO PROTECT AND RELY ON INSTINCTS AND WHAT THEY HAVE GONE THROUGH BEFORE. ITS NEVER THE SAME POSITION UNLESS YOU MAKE IT THAT WAY. AND YES PEOPLE DO CHANGE. THEY CHANGE EVERYTHING. I HOLD ON TO THE THINGS THAT ARE SAFE AND I HOLD ON TO THE THINGS THAT GET ME BY FOR THE TIME BEING. I LET GO OF THE PEOPLE THAT LET GO FIRST. I ALSO LET GO OF THE THINGS THAT TAKE ME AWAY FROM THE SAFE ZONE. I LOVE THINGS THAT GIVE ME JOY BUT NO LONGER NOW DO THEY. I LOVE THE PEOPLE THAT STAY BY ME WHEN I NEED THEM THE MOST. I CANT LOOK AT ME AND SEE HER AT ALL. I CANT IMAGINE YOU DOING THE SAME. I CANT LOOK AROUND MYSELF AND SEE THE LIFE WE HAVE BUILT, AND I CANT TRUST MYSELF TO TRY TO SEE PAST HER. I ONLY SEE WHAT REMINDS ME OF HERE, SEVEN OR EIGHT MONTHS AGO; WHEN MY HEAD WAS FILLED AND I WAS LED TO BELIEVE THE BROKEN PROMISES I HOPE YOU SEEK TO LOOK THROUGH AS WELL AS I DO THEM SAME. IF HE TRULY LOVED ME, HE WOULDN'T HAVE LET ME SAY GOODBYE. EACH MOMENT IS PRICELESS TO ANYONE WHO NOTICES. ITS NEVER THE PICTURE THAT CAPTURES IT, BUT THE MEMORY AND HEART FILLED FEELING OF THAT EXPERIENCE. I KNOW THIS GIRL WHO FELL SO DEEP IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY WHO USE TO MAKE HER SO HAPPY AND NOW SO SAD. THE FEELINGS WERE PHENOMENON AND IT WAS THE WAY SHE COULDN'T SAY HERSELF TO SAY GOODBYE. IT WAS THE CONTROL HE HAD NO CLUE ABOUT. THE CONTROL THAT MADE HER REALIZE THE WAY HE LOOKED AT HER, THE WAY HE SMILES TO ROUND OFF A SMIRK AND A GRIN ALONG WITH THE WAY HE MADE HER FEEL WHEN SHE KNEW HE WAS COMING TO SEE HER AGAIN TO RISK IT ALL. LOVES DECEIT AND LOVES PAIN TO FINALLY GIVE IT ALL UP FOR THE FUTURE OF A LITTLE GIRL.
