Unstable mind

Changes grow,
i'm not what i seem,
i'm not who you know.

my ever changing mind restricts my emotions,
my thoughts,
my actions.

extremes- up and down
never a break
a smile then a frown.

fun carefree daring over the top
i am the best
i can't-and don't want to stop

months it will last, then out of the blue
i'm back down and hopless
no point in living-just know it's true

this sickness-my head
can't fix it
this endless cycle-here til i'm dead.