Tears For The One She Loves

With a Devilish grin,
I pulled on his hand.
With a sly smile,
He understands.

He knows it well,
The Amount of love, for him, I obtain.
There's nothing else I could need.
Nothing I really wish to gain.

I have what I want
Right here in this place.
A Boy with a cold exterior
But a sweet heart, a beautiful face.

But unfortunately
Life has put an obstacle in our way.
My Mother wishes to move
Now It's limited, our days.

Why did life have to hurt,
The most instead of least.
Why did it have to happen
Once I found Peace?

Why does life screw up
My life when it's okay?
Why is it like this?
Why do I live this way?

Again and again they say:
"You're the Best thing to Happen to him!"
But now I wonder how it'll be
How he'll be once I've committed the sin.

I have to let him go soon.
Within the next few months, maybe weeks.
I need to look strong
Even though I'm actually fragile and weak.

My mind is telling me
To let him go now.
But my heart is crying,
And Screaming "How?"

And now I wonder.
Should I do Right Or Wrong?
Should I wait it out
Or Give up and look strong?

I don't know the outcome.
I never have or ever will.
But I have to pay the price
Like I'll have to pay a bill.

But it doesn't seem right.
I finally found hope.
Once I'm on that plane
How will I ever cope?

How can I deal,
With what I'm going to have to say?
Will I ever be able to look
Into those eyes ever the same way?

Such a difficult task,
One I never thought true.
How will I live with the fact
That I'm going to hurt you?

I don't know what to do.
My throat is choking, a lump.
How can this be happening?
How did I arrive in this slump?

Boy, you don't know.
How bad it feels.
But I hope that I'l hurt you enough
That, with hate, you'll heal.

Please, it's all I ask.
For you to hate me after this.
I want you to hate my every word.
Hate my every kiss.

Because what I'm going to say,
Should NEVER be said to you.
But it's what I have to do.
Even If I wish it weren't true.

So here is my story.
One of a girl and a kind sir.
A boy of sixteen, with a heart of gold.
And she just wants him to hate her.

Because if she knew this would happen,
She never would have said yes.
She never would have admitted it.
And it wouldn't have to end like this.

But no matter what,
Her feelings she'll have to shove.
Otherwise, she'll let them fall.
The Tears For The One She Loves.