Alone tonight

Im in my room tonight
I am having flashbacks of you
I see u hurting me
I see you wispering thing
I here you yelling at me
I want to talk so bad tonight
I want to cry
But i cant talk
No one will listen
I pick up this little razor
Look at it for a moment and then put it down
I think of cutting so i will be free of this
Im trying not to
I dont like the person u left me to be
Im trying but i dont think i can get back what i had
I am so lost
At this point i dont think a cant be found
I lock myself in my room
I called a friend
I cant get past this
So much in my head
So much left unsaid