Even in my dreams,
Each night for far too long,
your shadow in the doorway,
though you was never really there.
Darker than it seems,
and harder to explain it,
No words could ever show them,
what I used to fear.
Afraid to fall a sleep,
knowing you would be there,
Each night inside my mind,
destroying what you held dear.
In my nocturnal nightmare,
in my invisible Hell,
you layed a hand upon me,
that I made up myself.
And now the truth is shattered,
like all my childhood memories,
should I love or should I hate?
my own sadistic fantasies.
Now I can barely hear your voice,
you're torturing my mind,
and I cry each night the light goes out,
in fear of what to find.
The touch of sweet tormenting,
the kiss of make-believe.
Or was I just pretending,
So young and misconcieved.
Did you ever really love me,
were my dreams the only true?
In my invisible Hell,
when all I see is you.
