What Lies Aside

Painting pictures all alone
in seclusion mirrors around
sitting alone pestastools await
waiting to determine
my frightening fate

seeing my face around my body
pushes my fear in closer studies
gazing upon my frightening features
looking what's happening
in the future years

only to discover the pain i had forgotten
coming back fast
the rapids reminding
me of my old self and what i had seen
watching the flood crush my self-esteem

bleeding heavily as i stare at my face
the horrors come back to my once stable place
seeing my body in the sickening form
wishing to create what would renew

watching my reflection haunt me
holding my frame as it trembles
while ripping apart my body
as the girl in the mirror stares blankly in my eyes
i start to realize our growth
and what lies aside