What I Needed To Say

I never thought I'd be the one
Who'd claim a smile so fake
And try to pass it off as real
One more word, I'll break.

I'm fighting with my tears
Telling myself I am strong
I feel like each one I don't cry
Is still proving me wrong

Because inside I'm a puddle
Of things I don't let out
Screaming to feel alive
I only stutter these shouts

I'm so damaged from it all
I can't even break down
When did I get so broken
I can't turn this around.

I hate feeling all alone
It's like no one's on my side
And the one's who are
Are so far from me tonight

Every song writes about
The things I feel inside
It's only when I sing along
That I ever feel all right

I wake up and go to sleep
With you always there
So little I can tell you
And so much left to share

I trust in our solidity
But that doesn't tuck me in
It doesn't bring me closer
To seeing you again

Here's my apologies
If you've read what's here
I promise I'm okay
I've wiped away these tears

I'll hush the rest of this
For another time or day
At least I've gotten out
What I needed to say....